this is my favourite weezer moment ever

[youtube=http://au.youtube.com/watch?v=QqfTcPKjjXM]

to hell with sydney girls you're much better than them

sometimes, mostly late at night, i miss you. i miss how happy i was when we were at our best. and my heart aches because no doubt i hurt you and i didn't mean to. you didn't deserve to be treated the way i did. i'm really sorry. i've never said that to you. i'm so sorry.

and i'm sorry for myself because we could've been awesome together. but oh well, it didn't work out and i'm sure that something else will. well i hope it will.

ahh, sleepers was on tv tonight and it always makes me cry. the first time i saw it was on christmas ever 1997 and i was so emo about it that it almost ruined my whole holiday period.

drip drop

sydney always seems just that little bit more impatient when it rains.

3 minute rule

andrew g is a lot cooler than people give him credit for.

back in 1999 me and some friends went a couple of times to hang out and watch by demand. back when he and paula used to host and he still had long hair. he was always really cool to us. and one time he told dave grohl a story about my mum, which in turn caused david eric grohl to give my mum the finger on live television.

and tonight i found out that he's a really good writer.

PS: he also takes beautiful photos.

night drive

it's humid tonight. sydney town's first balmy night of the year. it's the type of night that makes you want to sit out on the veranda, have a smoke and drink vodka and orange juice with lots of ice cubes. or like on one ill-fated february night about six years ago, brass monkey.

i just got home from the gym. did a class that was about five minutes of crunches and ab work, and 40 minutes of stretching. i feel so good now. about 30cm taller.

in the last few weeks i've felt myself slide. worse than i have in a couple of years it's been harder and harder to get out of bed. i spend all day at work listening to music and not talking to anyone. and the stories in my head come to the fore front until what's real and what's not start to blur.

i'm always worst this time of year. spring gets me down. october 17 is the anniversary of something that's not even important anymore, but still i use it as my one day of the year to be outwardly emo, eat lots of chocolate, watch the late show and not talk to anyone.

i'm trying really hard to keep exercising and keep eating well and talk to people and stay out of my head.

in other news i had my first bottle of coke in three and a half months on saturday. i was so sad because it didn't taste as good as i remembered, or as good as i had built up in my head that it was going to be. but i've realised that this is a good thing. i have officially kicked the habit.

on saturday i'm going to the races with my work homeys. well james has hurt his ankle, so i'm not sure if he'll be able to go which makes me sad. i have a cute dress [the one i wore to winter ball last year for those playing along at home] and an even cuter fascinator for my hair. i don't really like horse races, but i like getting dressed up and getting drunk. and i like cute boys who are dressed up.

last thing, a quick travel update. currently awaiting my passport to arrive. then it's onto the visa application. i decided to pay off my last debt, so i'm down about a quarter of my savings. according to the new visa rules you have to have a minimum of $4038 in your account for three months. so i have enough to cover that still, but the more the better. but in the end it was a good thing to pay that off [not that i wasn't making regular payments, but now i've gotten rid of it in a lump sum] because i'll have $100 extra a fortnight to save, and i'll save about $250 in interest between now and the time i go. also i was a bit worried about how the loan would show up on my visa application, so i've gotten rid of it now before it might become an issue.

ahh now it's getting windy, and we might be in for a storm.

Probably the world's lightest

Probably the world's lightest

Originally uploaded by nosatellites

the start and the end of the story

i just read back on something i wrote on another part of the internet around this time last year. and in light of recent events it has become something to think about again.

this friday is my former place of employment's birthday party.

which means it's a year since i kissed someone with passion, with longing and desire.

since i kissed someone and meant it.

i think i'm destined to live my life alone with the stereo

25/10/2007 11:25

another year is about to go past. how many boys have i kissed since that night in 2006? 10 maybe. and what i have said is as true tonight as it was back then. which is sad. because it makes me wonder what i have been doing. just going through the motions i guess. fulfilling needs that my body has. but not the ones my heart does.

it also makes me sad that the boy that night ended up being such a lost cause. i fucked up something pretty special because my head got caught up in him.

anyway that's enough of talking about stuff like this.

top five weezer songs

5. the sweater song

4. tired of sex

3.  the good life

2. across the sea

1. say it ain't so

discuss.

PS: top two b-sides: 1. suzanne 2. mykel and carli

meet my new boyfriend

everyone this is murph. murph this is everyone.



you can see him for the final time next wednesday at 9pm on the abc. god i love him. not so much lachy hulme, but murph. so sad that he's not real.