star wars sheets

the L90 was late again today. i stood in line at the bus stop next to a guy who looked like a boy i once had quite the crush on.

memories of our time came flooding back, and it was painful. years of longing. kissing on a summer day. but knowing it was never going to be. the emails when i fell apart after my 18 month long relationship ended. and no reply. and now the facebook messages that go unanswered.

but this guy and i, we have a half an hour long life time. awkward beginings. highs and lows shared. laughing at some road rage playing out in front of us. cursing when we see a bus at the lights, then as it comes properly into view realising it's the 254 to lane cove or the 288 epping via freeway. then it's stilted, we go back to our music and don't talk to each other. and final goodbyes. he chooses to go to the back of the bus to find a seat, and i stay up the front.

then later i was listening to nada surf, and all of a sudden a memory popped into my head. standing with another fan, talking to matthew caws about how they don't play mothers day because "robot is such a better song." my head was better with those thoughts.

as an aside, there was this hand written sign lying on the grass where condamine street merges with pittwater road that said "cancer comes from dogs." seriously.