star wars sheets

the L90 was late again today. i stood in line at the bus stop next to a guy who looked like a boy i once had quite the crush on.

memories of our time came flooding back, and it was painful. years of longing. kissing on a summer day. but knowing it was never going to be. the emails when i fell apart after my 18 month long relationship ended. and no reply. and now the facebook messages that go unanswered.

but this guy and i, we have a half an hour long life time. awkward beginings. highs and lows shared. laughing at some road rage playing out in front of us. cursing when we see a bus at the lights, then as it comes properly into view realising it's the 254 to lane cove or the 288 epping via freeway. then it's stilted, we go back to our music and don't talk to each other. and final goodbyes. he chooses to go to the back of the bus to find a seat, and i stay up the front.

then later i was listening to nada surf, and all of a sudden a memory popped into my head. standing with another fan, talking to matthew caws about how they don't play mothers day because "robot is such a better song." my head was better with those thoughts.

as an aside, there was this hand written sign lying on the grass where condamine street merges with pittwater road that said "cancer comes from dogs." seriously.

waking up inertia

some how last night i set my alarm for 3am instead of 6am. that was fun. especially when i only noticed after i had made breakfast and sat down at my computer.

i stupidly decided to go back to bed. and it was closer to 7 by the time i got up.

i was out the door in 20 minutes. my hair is a mess and i forgot my phone and my lunch.

and now i get to work and find out we haven't been paid. i have exactly $28 dollars at the moment, and who knows what is happening. i've heard that the company is in trouble, but hopefully this is not a sign of things to come.

i am looking forward to going back to bed.

double allergic.

the team leader of the annoying telemarketers that sit behind us just, after listening to that new powderfinger song, said "if you're about to ask if i have vulture street on my ipod the answer is yes. i also have odyssey number 5. but i don't have their first one. what's it calls? oh yeah, internationalist."

god dammit. i hardly even like powderfinger these days, but i still know that they released TWO albums before internationalist.

last week the assistant to the team leader [like the assistant to the regional manager] and one of the telemarketers argued for 5 minutes about the date of the big day out. he wouldn't be told that it's on the 25th this year. finally he decided that it must be a new thing. even though it was on that date this year.

but i feel like a dork correcting them. i'll just sit in my corner with my emo sweater on and curse the dance music they play.

daydreaming

last night i was dreaming that this huge spike thing was coming down to stab me as i was sleeping. in my dream i managed to roll off the bed in time to avoid being skewered.

when i woke up i was on the floor and half way out the door.

in other news rach and i were at the mall today and spotted this hilarious piece of graffiti. i was especially impressed with the apostrophe.

dopest ride on the northside

i could just about cry

argh. i've had the worst morning evah.

i straightened my hair, and now i look like warwick capper. we're talking serious mullet action.

then i managed to get make up all over my new white shirt. and i'm going out after work tonight. i wonder if i could buy something to get the stain out without needing to wash it?

then the bus took like an hour and a half to get to the city and i was mad late. i fuckin hate the bus.

 PS: my header image has disappeared. it was there last night and now it's gone. and it won't appear on the two different sites i saved it on. it's a ghost image! maybe this is inspiration to make it better.

PPS: i am pms-y and emo. you should send me chocolate!

the rentals

so new layout. i don't have mad skillz so it hasn't changed much. i'm not sure if i like it yet. it's not quite right. but it's a lot darker and i like that.

in other news i scored a second job today! miss sarin hooked me up with a spot working the door at her bar on friday nights. extra money equals longer overseas oh yeah! it should be fun, and a good chance to meet some new peeps. plus a good excuse to buy some new clothes.

it's crazy hot, still. i think i'll go have a shower

sunday night music

i just deleted 2g worth of music that i don't listen to off my hard drive. i'm sure i'll have deleted something good by mistake and really regret the whole operation very shortly.

i've had a weezer day today. i can't even remember what inspired it. lots of the blue album, and i downloaded the new rentals ep. such brilliant powerpop.

now i'm listening to neil finn's first solo album. it was the first album that i anticipated the release of. and i bought it the first day it came out. i wasn't disappointed, however now that i listen to it ten years on, it's very dark and almost too old for a 14 year old to be listening to.

tomorrow i am going to buy the new dashboard confessional album and hope it doesn't suck as hard as dusk and summer did.

i got my hair did over the weekend. it's a bit blonder than i was expecting. i haven't decided whether i like it yet. especially because it's really dry today. i think, though, it will make my green eye shadow pop a bit more.

i've been waiting all night for the latest episode of er to download. it's finally fucking finished and now i don't feel like watching it anymore. i think i'll just go to bed instead

tmi

today my tonsils are weeping pus.

yes, it's as gross as it sounds

except when it's too late at night

my favourite band in the whole galaxy, nada surf have announced that their fifth long player, lucky, will be released in early february next year.

they've put up one of the new tracks on their myspace. it's beautiful. new nada surf songs make me happy. this is a given, however it took me a while to warm to the weight is a gift.

but this track on myspace, called see these bones, has captured me. i've listened to it non stop for the last half an hour. it's so intelligent, and different to anything they've done before, and just lovely.

i can't wait to find out if the rest of the album is just as good.

swearing ahead

ARGH! FUCKING TELSTRA CUNTS. WHY DO YOU HAVE TO MAKE MY LIFE SO DIFFICULT?2

you scream

i processed an urgent order quite quickly for one of our partners [like our customers, but more special. in both sense of the term in some cases] today. to say thank you, he's taking me out for ice cream when he's in sydney in a few weeks.

 i hope he's hot.

 my co-workers all want to come along for the ice creams. screw them

parking update

melanie 3 - warringah council 0

money stuff

i just bought a whole pile of stuff from the MAC website. the actual store is only about four blocks away, however every single person who works there is a self important asshole. i think they extra delivery costs were well worth not having to deal with being looked down at.

this morning i remembered on the way out the door that i needed to buy a new bus ticket. i didn't have time to walk to the stop via the newsagent and still be on time for work. plus i was feeling lazy, so i drove my car and parked in a council, three hour limit, car park. fingers crossed that i don't return to a ticket. or worse, a towed away car. however i know that if i don't, i''m gonna keep parking there until i do.

back in the hood

god damn. i am tired beyond words.

this evening at about 6:30 i was on my way to woolworths when my mum called me. she said that she'd just found out nan was in hospital. she sounded upset because when she called, the hospital couldn't give her any information.

so i drove to the field, and then on to c-town to see her. they're waiting on some test results at the moment to rule out her heart as being the cause of her chest pain, but it's probably going to be just breathing problems. today was a fucked up day pollen wise. i had pretty much the worst hayfever ever, and everyone in my team at work was copping it. so it's probably that.

it also may have something to do with the fact that mum's been busy lately and hasn't had much time to go and see her. wouldn't be the first time that's happened.

so i stayed with her til about quarter to 10, then i went and got petrol and maccas at my favourite servo in the whole world, surly's on camden valley way. except the guy who served me was not surly at all.

and now i'm back north side. i still need to go shopping, but i think that will be bypassed in favour of a swim tomorrow.

notes about the north side

- my calves are sore from walking so far to and from the bus stop each day.

-i know it's going to be a good day when i get a seat on the L88.

-my cousin has a special [and no doubt extremely expensive] mattress to help with her back problems. it is horrible. i feel like i'm sleeping in play-doh. i think the sofa bed would be much more comfortable. a pile of rocks would be more comfortable.

-it's lovely to be able to get home from a sweaty and long day at work and go for a swim.

-there's sooooooo many good looking guys at the beach. most of them half naked and wet. it's killing me.

tori spelling

my cousin has more clothes than anyone i've ever seen. at least double the amount i do. and that's just the stuff she's leaving behind.

we're about the same size, so i'm looking forward to borrowing a few items for the duration of my stay.

unfortunately my feet are much smaller than hers

how about alphabetical order

here i am on the north side. it was nice to be over this side of the habour tonight, and be in the heartland of one of the teams playing in the grand final. even if they did lose. made me want to put maroon and white streamers on my car. made me wish my team weren't so crap.

friday night was wild. i got home at 6am with five more dollars than i left home with, and a tab of acid in my pocket.

i meant to write more, but i can't think of anything at the moment.