fear of mathematics

my new job is challenging. i get in early and i leave late. my hand is all cramped up tonight after over working the mouse. but i learn lots of things each day. the people who call us are friendly and my coworkers look out for me.

last friday matty and i were at the pub next door to iinet, eating dinner and having a few quiet ones before going to see something for kate. one of the guys who started in may or so, who i didn't know too well at all, stopped to have a drink with us. we chatted for a while, he even flirted with matt a little bit before he went on his way home.

on monday morning matt emailed to tell me that he had died on saturday. apparently it was a problem with his cardiovascular system. i don't know how i feel about it really. i didn't know him well enough to feel sad. i'm just shaken up that one day he was there having a beer with us and the next day he was gone.

i need to pack over the weekend. i'm leaving the field for the peninsula for four months. as much as i am looking forward to being able to see the ocean from every room in my house, i'm not looking forward to leaving my room and my mum.

i need go to bed now so i can get enough sleep to be able to stay out drinking all night tomorrow. one of my favourite iineters is leaving, and the pissup is sure to be killer.